It's been 10 full years..

since i left my primary school (Holy Innocent's Primary). Much as I wish to hold on to memories of my primary school days, I have to say that I honestly do not recall much of my primary school life.

Two nights ago i received a request on msn. it was my primary school friend. and after the usual "how's life" talk, she sent me a pic of one of the outing she had with my other pri-school mates. I almost could not believe how much everyone had changed. Everyon looked so different, yet there was this warm tinge of familiarity as i gazed at their faces. Slowly, the memories came.

I remember the first day of school, when i vomited immediately after alighting from school life due to motion sickness from the school-bus ride. I remember having to sing hymns and say prayers every morning/evening. I remember the names of the teachers who taught me, and how i always looked forward to PE lessons haha.. I remember my favorite teacher Ms Kweh in primary 2, as well as the time when i was appointed prefect in primary 3, and eventually how I "resigned" as a prefect just to play bball during recess hahaha.. and of cos, i remember my friends =)

After graduating from primary school, we lost contact with each other. A handful of us went to DHS, but the relationship slowly cooled of to "hi-bye" friends. As the years went by, I happened to bump into a couple of my pri-school mates by sheer coincidence. from choir, BMT, sit-test and finally in NUS.

Its a funny feeling to realise that 10 years had gone by just like that. So much has changed, but so much still the same.

I'm looking forward to a primary school outing =)

A Post on NS

Was watching 康熙来了earlier this morning and there's these 4 artistes who were invited on the show to share their NS experiences in taiwan. was sort of irritated by the episode though cos they also happened to invite 8 female models to listen to the guys' stories and apparently they found it extremely boring.

That leads me to think, are girls the least bit interested in guys' NS experiences?

I mean, having only served 6 months of NS, I'm probably not really in a position to say much abt wat my fellow peers have gone through in their 2~2.5 years of national service. But i'm sure each and everyone who's gone through NS will have his own story and experience that he is proud of. After all, NS is a totally new stage of life for many of the guys (except those who were in NCC before =))

Usually when guys talk abt NS, we compare with each other about how "siong" our training is, sort of like a mini-competition to see who's e most garang soldier.

And why? because the shit that we've gone through gives us pride.

Be it achieving gold in your ippt, or completing your SOC in 9mins flat, or having your 24km route-march in the rain, or starve for 5 days in Brunei during jungle-survival, or climbing over peaks and peaks of hills in ROC, all these tasks gives us a sense of achievement.

perhaps some girls will think "everyone has to go through wat.. wats e big deal?"

its true. but each soldier's experience is unique and special to him, and if you cant understand the things he has achieved, then at least do not look down on these achievements =)

Its okay if you find guys talking abt NS boring, because i assume u do not understand having not gone through it youself. But try to understand that its a whole new experience for the guy and he's jus trying to share with you what he's been going through.

majority of the models in e episode pointed out that they would be more interested in stories revolving around "accidents" rather than "training" and "tekan-ing".

to this i say : fuck u.

would u still think this way if the person who happened to die in the accident is your boyfren?

jus some thots =)

Holidays!

its the mid term break, but to be perfectly honest i've never really stepped out of the holiday mood in e first place heh. i noe if i carry on slacking like this i'm gonna regret it when the results are released at e end of the semester, but i jus cant seem to snap out of this lack-lustre mood..

Academics has never been a real problem to me. i remember the times when i was younger, my mum would buy stacks and stacks of assessment books for me to do. And where my bro was scolded and caned for being too playful, i was given the same medicine for not completing my assessment books.

On hindsight, i should be grateful to these books, for i believe they did help to lighten the burden of my academics. But at the same time i realised that there's something more that helped me.

my peers.

Looking back, i reaised that at every stage of my life, there's always someone that i work towards. In secondary school i had a close fren who excelled in maths and science, and making him my benchmark, i would slowly work towards the same level as he is.

Same thing happened when i was in tjc. Rayner excelled in math, while bingde taught me econs and physics, both of whom happened to be my best frens in jc. Coincidence? perhaps.

However, due to my signing-on with the RSAF, i disrupted for studies 2 years earlier than these frens who were supposedly in e same cohort as me. The result? i flunked in my first 2 years of university. With no friend ard me to set as a target, i was lost; yet at the same time i sort of learnt to be independent, to really develop my own studying methods instead of simply following others.

It finally worked the last sem, lets hope it'll work again this sem =)

suddenly have this craving to go back to taiwan haha.. wanted to go bintan during this hols, but abit worried abt the earthquakes in indonesia. siannnn

Thoughts

its been quite awhile since i blogged about something a little deeper than my daily mundane life. not saying that it's a bad thing though.. cos it probably means i'm happy with my life heh =X

so it happened that during my free day i happened to ponder on this topic : BGR aka boy-girl-relationship.

something that almost everyone has to go through, something that can be so simple, and yet at e same time something that can be unbelievably complex.

what does a guy look for in a girl? a pretty face? great figure? intelligence? independence? sense of humour? character? i remembered a fren telling me that (in terms of math) each guy has his own unique function f(x) that consists a unique combination of all e factors (and maybe more) i've just mentioned. and when a guy finally finds a girl that fits into the equation, he falls for her. and if the guy also happens to fit comfortably into the girl's equation, they become a couple. sounds simple enough?

not really.

too many times i've seen cases of hopes going down the drain for many reasons.

1.Religion

no offence watsoever, but this is by far e most ridiculous "barrier" in my opinion. religions that forbid their followers' partners to be of other religions? someone enlighten me pls.

2."Sister"

haha some ppl say this is e worst state to be in.. to be classified as 姐妹 by the girl u like. meaning she has no special feelings for u, and yet u have to bear e pain of seeing her very often.

3.Attached

e guy falls too deep in love before realising the girl is attached. pain.

yup. so wats my whole point in this entry? i dunno also haha.. like i said its jus some thoughts i have..

to all my frens out there. i wish u happiness =)

Time flies

dun really have anything or real importance nor significance to blog about actually haha but jus abit of update on the past week.

time really seems to fly this semester.. its already coming to the mid-term break already and it still feels like i haven really been studying alot yet haha.. once again it may be due to the sudden lack of modules and the seemingly extra time that i have compared to the other semesters.

For EE4305, i understand the concepts taught so far, but doubt i will be able to work out the calculations manually without having to refer to the notes. yet to go through the tutorials also..

For EC3101, the lecturer serene tan (same one as my macro1) has once again proven to be the most demanding econs lecturer i've had till now. its only during her lectures that i really feel econs is not as easy as it seems =.= understanding the concepts is simple enough, its the math that i'm worried about..

For my FYP, i'm still pretty much at the trial and error part, since my prof dun hav any constructive advice for me besides asking me to go to the library to find references on my own. Good thing is i'm not alone (well not really) in this project as there's 2 other students working on the same area, but yet herein lies the dilema. since we're working under the same professor and on the same area, we should be considered a team, and a team shud help each member out; yet at the same time being FYP students and under NUS's grading system, it also makes us rivals. and one FYP student(lets call him T) jus recently reminded me of this sad truth:

Durin yesterday's fyp meeting our porf decided to give us a "surprise" CA1 which caught me and the other fyp student (lets call him Y) unawares. Apparently T alr knew abt this "surprise" on thursday and did not bother to inform us. great. i may have lost some points on the 10% CA1, but T has lost a great deal of trust from me and Y.

lastly, a photo of last sunday's concert-cum-gathering of the dhs gang:

Update..

Had my weekend burnt haha.. was supposed to go east coast park to kayak on saturday.. but so happened that the kayak-rental shop closed down liao.. then we walked from VJC all e way to the sea sports club past bedok jetty.. and still din manage to kayak =.= end up we took bus all e way back to parkway to play pool hahaha.. think now need certification (at least one star) to rent kayak at places like pasir ris also.. sian..

den on sunday we met again and went to bedok reservoir to kayak this time heh.. but we were only allowed to kayak in a small area (in the alr not-so-big reservoir) and it actually kills abit of the fun. still very much prefer to kayak at sea =/

at nite went to watch (or rather listen) to zijing and jing jing's acapella concert.. saw several familiar faces such as zuze, shuhui, kane kane, zhiying etc.. everyone changed quite abit from when i last saw them.. but there was this little touch of famliarity nonetheless.. kinda filled me with nostalgia when i remembered e times back in secondary school and jc where the whole choir sang and worked hard together for syf and concerts.. like i said before, its a good feeling to be part of a larger identity =)

as for school.. my fyp (or rather my prof) is really giving me a headache.. he kept changing the topic that i'm supposed to work on.. and now i'm supposed to work on sth that even he himself is not sure of. i mean, there's no one i can ask, no readings he can recommend me at all.. the other 2 fyp students' tasks seem so much easier lor.. zzz.. think i'm gonna arrange a meeting with him soon and ask him for sth simpler cos i dun really think its fair to me.. argh

Gatherings

went to bugis to celebrate weiliat's bday today.. had dinner at the 辣妹子重庆老火锅王 haha eat till damn shiok..

for me, such gatherings are always fun and much looked forward to.. because it's a time to catch up with old pals, find out how everyone's doing and reminisc the "good old days" haha.. laughing with each other, laughing at each other.. its a great feeling.

ironically midway through the meal i received an sms from an old fren.. and it brought a tiny tinge of sadness within me.

we used to be such close frens.

the days where we played bball after school everyday, rain or shine.

the days where we went to kallang leisure park for ice-skating, bowling and arcade.

even after we left secondary school, we still met up often to celebrate the gang's bday.

and not forgetting the occasional chalets, no matter how boring they seemed.

so wat happened? u might ask.

it was u, who failed to turn up for the occasional gatherings to celebrate bdays. not even for a couple of hours.

it was u, who kept giving the same excuses. seminars. meetings. busy etc.

it was u, who always had to leave early to return to office even during e rare times when u did come.

worse still, we gave u 2 weeks advance notice.

worse still, we gave u plenty of chances. but the same shit keeps happening.

so well, u might blame us.

for not replying ur msges.

for not asking u out anymore.

for being cold towards u.

u took us for granted. we had enuff of it.

let this be a lesson learnt. dun ever take ur frens for granted =)